Venting

No one reads my blog anyway but I got to vent a little bit about life. 

I'm giving up on online dating like tinder, grindr and badoo etc... 

I'm done, I can't take anymore. I always gets my hopes up and they are always shattered, my heart can't take anymore.

I match with people and chat with them a bit. I think it's going great and suggests that we meet up, sometimes they agree but after they'd agreed I'll get ghosted or I'll get ghosted right after I suggest that we meet up.

I've been ghosted too many times, we start off great but as soon as I suggests that we meet up it's dead silence. Nothing. Nada. Zero. 

My heart is done. I've had enough. I will live alone and I'm perfectly fine with that, if no one wants me then fine, I will be okay in the end.

Another thing is that I live a pretty lonely life as of late. I spend most of my free time alone at home. I haven't talked to my best friends in a while. It feels to me that I need to be the one who keeps contact with them. It's always me who calls them. They never call me unless they have a missed call from me and I'm done with it, if they want to talk they can call me, I'm not calling them anymore. 

As for being invited to things, I never get invited unless I ask if I can come and it makes me think that I'm not welcomed anywhere.

Maybe it's wrong with me as a person, my personality. Maybe I'm not that likeable as I thought I was. Maybe I'm supposed to be alone. 

I think alot about who loves and cares about me, and I have come to the conclusion that no one cares about me and no one loves me. They all pretend so that I'm not gonna feel left out. I it's sympathy feelings. 

Maybe it's just my mind twisting things or maybe I'm right. Who knows if it's true or not. 

That's all for now. 

Unboxing Lootcrate May 2017

Today I got my May month Lootcrate, a bit late but Postnord had some troubles with their system.
This is my fourth lootcrate and itäs the Guardians of the Galaxy crate.

It's not as big as my other crates and didn't have a lot of things in it but I'm quite happy with the stuff.

Here is the unboxing video:

And here comes the pictures of the stuff:

Rocket Raccoon & Baby Groot Q-Fig

Avatar: The Last Airbender pin

Star Wars coloring book with 6 color pencils and sharpener

Puzzle book

Destiny Patches

The Goonies T-Shirt

I love being a chef

I've been away from blogging for a while but now I'm going to post something when I have time and something to write about
During my absence here I've been unemployed, got a job, quit that job got another job that I love and I've had it for about 3.5 month. My job title is airport controller or security controller. I'm working with airport security and I love it. Maybe I will write about some things that I find in bags.

But as the title say I'm going to talk about  my love for cooking. I've always loved to bake but it's just recently that I started cooking and I love it, especially if you cook for a lot of people. 
I became the chef of my social fraternity at Norrlands Nation last year and started cooking for them the first time in october last year and I have to say that me and my kitchen help is a damn good team.
The christmas ham we made was the best one that I've eaten.

I'm going to post some pictures of the food I cooked for my fraternity and some that I cooked at home and some cakes that I baked at home. 

April's loot crate 2015 =D

So I got my first loot crate today =D.
It's april's month crate and the theme is fantasy and the things inside was awesome, I can't wait to see May month crate =D.

Here is the unboxing video I did:


And here are the stuff that was inside the crate:

Games of Thrones House Sigil magnets

Harry Potter 9 3/4 Bag Tag

Fantasy Bow Tie from BlackTieGeek

Hous of Stark Sigil Flas Drive

The Princess Bride Playing Cards

Inflatable Crown

Dungeons & Dragons T-shirt

Loot Crate Box

Loot Crate Box

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Love,
Chrisse

Studio Ghibli

In just three weeks I've seen two new and really good Ghibli movies, "Princess Kaguya" and "When Marnie Was There" . "Princess Kaguya" became one of my favorite Studio Ghibli film if not my absolute favorite. "When Marnie Was There" is also a really good movie from Ghibli and when I finished watching it I was amazed.

Studio Ghibli never fails to amaze me and I haven't seen a bad Ghibli film ever.
In my opinion Studio Ghibli is my favorite film studio <3.

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Yours truly
Chrisse

Night sky

Took some photos today on the night sky, only one photo turned out okay but I really liked it. It's not edited, normaly I edit my photos, but I didn't feel that this picture needed to be edited.

Nostalgi och feels

Ibland så brukar jag plocka fram min gamla studentmössa och tänka tillbaka på gymnasietiden. Idag när jag tog fram den så hittade jag även ett papper och på det så står det massa positiva saker om mig som mina gamla klasskamrater skrivit.
Detta papper har varit nerpackat sen jag flyttade från päronen.
När jag läste igenom papperet så brast jag ut i tårar och kände att jag saknar er enormt.
Jag tänkte tillbaka på all dem roliga stunder som vi haft tillsammans och hoppas vi alla kan träffas framöver för en reunion.
Miss you guys ♡

Det som står på papperet är följande:

"Du är en väldigt bra skådespelare! Hoppas du medverkar i filmer framöver. Lycka till! =)"

"Värsta skön poler! "

" Bästa polarn!"

"You are amazing and I'll never forget you! ♡🌟"

"Glädjefylld energispruta."

"Du underbara själ =) Kul, ambitiös och duktig! Önskar dig många barn och mycket lycka! =)"

"Tack för allt du är! Jag är oerhört glad att jag fått möjligheten att lära känna dig. Tack!"

"En riktigt bra gycklare."

"Rock on dude!"

"Underbar kille! Hoppas vi får lika många roliga stunder som vi haft. Krams"

"Christian, Christian, sjukt nice att få lära känna dig. Du är helt fantastiskt godhjärtad & pålitlig & rolig. Ha det bäst! =)"

"Christian, ängel! Du är så otroligt givmild och omtänksam!! Många, många saker under dessa 3 år hade aldrig blivit av om det inte var för din drivande kraft. Fantastisk skådis! Lav you! ♡"

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Love
Chrisse